*hug* You and your family will be in my prayers. :(

The last time I went to a funeral, I was about to be eight. My dad's mom had died. All I remember was it was right after New Year's (and my birthday's later in January, so), which is still the Christmas season for us. We walked back to my grandpa's house after Mass at night and it was snowing.

I understand why, but I can't explain it to you. :( Sorry. Just tough it out for a bit, try for around a half-hour, and then ask to be excused. It's what cairnsy said - everyone's different. *hug*