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That meme brought back memories of old fandoms, and I ventured back to my old account and read some of the old stories that I'd written there. xD; Needless to say, that amused me. The writing itself was actually halfway decent- I wasn't sure whether to be proud that I wrote that well at, like, twelve, or horrified that I haven't improved that much since then. xDD;; On the other hand... SO improved with plot. Half-elves and Mary Sue and character/OC fics galore. Fail, Rae, fail. On the other hand, the stories were a whole lot longer than anything I've managed to spit out recently, so... D:

Now, on to serious things. My grandmother died last night- about two o'clock in the morning, I've been told. =/ I'm not upset... I knew it was coming... but just meh. Mom's really upset, as I knew she would be. I can't even imagine how Grandpa is... I ranted about how in denial he was about how bad her condition was when I was down therea week ago, but now I just feel bad about it. =/ Anyway, the funeral and service is this weekend, and so we'll be driving down Friday morning. Well, my dad, my brother, and I will be, mom is flying down tommorow to help with everything.

I'm going to try to make this not that whiney and insensitive, but I'll probably fail. I have a question. What have you guys done, like... before and after funerals? Mom says we're going to sit around my grandparent's house for like two/three days and have 'family time'. As in... sitting around all day. As in I've already been lecture on NO CELLPHONE NO MUSIC NO COMPUTERS EVER AT ALL.

I'm trying not to be whiney, but... that is so not my thing. At all. I don't understand it. That just... doesn't sound like any kind of help at all to me. But then, I'm not a people person. It's certainly not going to help me feel any better; probably just make me more pissy and upset. /fails at socializing

I mean, I'll do without complaint it because it'll probably make my grandfather feel better, but... I don't get it. *shrugs* Ah, whatever. I'll somehow manage to struggle through, heh. >____>

And somehow you guys will have to survive the weekend without my wonderful presense. :p

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*hugs* I'm really sorry to hear this, hun! Death sucks! :/

I think funerals are nice in a way. They're memorials and you get together with the family and remember the deceased person. I'm not familiar with the funeral traditions in other countries, but first there's the church part, after that the burial and after that socializing with food while telling stories. At my uncle's... second funeral we mused about if he had had a second wife.

Funerals are usually held a few weeks after the person's death here, which is probably late compared to other countries. Most people have probably done most of their grieving by then, I tend to mourn constantly for a couple of days, and then I'm suddenly fine.

I hope the family time/gathering won't be too bad. I'm sure your family understands if you want some alone-time.

And what did we do after my grandma's funeral? We went to IKEA in our funeral clothes (I inherited my grandma's black little partydress from the 50's-60's? and it's now part of my funeral outfit, I see it as a tribute) and did some shopping because we're Swedish. And somewhat morbid. Or both.

If you need to talk you know where to find me! ♥